I like giants

     Last night I slept little because sometimes I give into anxiousness (I don't really know how to get away from it at times really).  Thankfully I was able to sleep in so I did get a decent amount. 

     I was feeling a little like a wreck and decided I needed to sing and play ukulele because it is cathartic for me at times.  I just played and sang some songs I hadn't touched for a while, surrendering to God and acknowledging my weakness.  I found the song "I Like Giants" in my arsenal of songs and decided I would do that one too.  I remember playing it last year at the Women's Craft Collective kind of shyly as people did the crafting and feeling the power of the truth in that simple rather quirky song.  Later, in the summer, after my good friend Joi took her own life, the words had even greater meaning.  So in a matter of half a week it will be the one year mark from when Joi did take her life and I feel it's important to remember and share the precious beauty we lost.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gl-YrFucQjs

     I guess the lyrics that really get me are:

So I talked to Genevieve and almost cried when she said 

That the giant on the cliff wished that she were dead

And the lemmings on the cliff wished that they were dead

So the giant told the lemmings why they ought to live instead

Then she thought up all those reasons that they ought to live instead

It made her reconsider all the sad thoughts in her head

So thank you Genevieve, cause you take what's in your head

And you make things that are so beautiful and share them with your friends

     I definitely started crying when I sang them.  To me, those lyrics fit Joi so well in the way she encouraged others even in her despair.  I guess I just want to share this song and my thoughts because I know there are plenty of people out there that still have the sad thought that lie to them about how important (and LOVED!) they are.  I want people to realize they are important no matter what their own thoughts (or others) tell them. I will always miss Joi and wonder what could have been.  I know that she is with Jesus and that is comforting.  Yet, we still miss her and always will.